My Morning

5:45am- wake up hungry. Very hungry. I think about how much i want to read more of the Breaking Dawn book ive been working on.. for the second time. Get out of bed.
5:47am- After using the restroom, I step on the scale, hoping that the previous act has magically lifted ten pounds off my body. I sigh. Unfortunately it has not.
5:50am- I finally finish staring at the unwelcomed number on the scale and shuffle to the living room to do my morning Wii workout.
5:54am- I actually step onto the Wii board and it weighs me, again and shows me how much ive lost. The result makes my little mini Wii bloat up and have love handles, just like me. Then a big red "OVERWEIGHT" pops up. I grunt and scratch my leg. Im hungry. I half heartedly stretch and crunch for fifteen minutes. My body is sprawled on the floor and im sweating. I suddenly realise that I dont even have a shirt on and wonder if i had just given the neighbors an early morning show. I crawl onto the couch and read from Breaking Dawn.
6:22 Hayden wakes up and I hear jerry stirring. I go into the bathroom, sit down, and continue reading. Jerry calls my name. "Im in the bathroom! That food last night didnt sit well with me!" I chuckle at my cleverness then relax back on the toilet to continue reading about Bellas troubles. Hehheh.
6:34 I suddenly remember that ive got to shower and eat before dropping Jerry off. I drop my clothes and jump into he shower. Hayden cries for me and puts his chubby fingers under the door trying to get my attention.
6:40 I cant find a towell. I result in using my sleeping pants. I slip on my clothes. The fabric sticks to my wet thighs.
6:50 I start the car, Jerry brings hayden out with his yogurt and puts him in. As jerry is buckling hayden in, Hayden says "PooPoo?" and refuses to sit down correctly. Jerry sighs and takes hayden inside to change his diaper. He returns and we drive to drop Jerry off.
7:03 We're returning home and I hear hayden say "Uh-Oh". I look over and see that he has dumped half of his yogurt on his shirt and buckles and it was starting to flow onto his legs. At this moment I notice haydens feet are black.
7:15 I arrive home, only to realise that Jerry had taken my key and the door was locked. I called him angrily demanding to know the reason he took the key. He gave me a very calm answer. I hang up, somewhat disappointed that I didnt get the angry response i was hoping for that would feed my bad mood. I deicde to use my credit card to enter through the back door. The dog is jumping and nipping at my pant legs. I push him away and see that he has totally dirtied up my pants. Great. I hear hayden in the car crying. I imagine myself kicking the door in like they do in the movies. With a grunt and a few choice words i manage to pop the door open. I open the front door and retrieve hayden.
7:33 I feel like im goign to chew my face off. I search for my cereal and find its empty carcass lying in the trash. Victim of Jerrys late night snacking. My eyes well up as I think about having to endure the hunger longer.
7:45 Im almost finished getting ready. Thoughts of donuts and pastries race through my head. Hayden comes up to me with a browning slimmy banana that he has been carrying around for the past 10 minutes and demands that i take a "vite". I offend him when I say no and he cries.
7:56 I drop hayden off at daycare and drive to Brothers Bakery to buy out the store.
8:03 I arrive at my work, walk in with my mouth full of delicious sweet bread and sausage. I sit down and clock in.

Im so glad tomorrows friday.

Crazy Days

Things have been pretty busy this last month.

*I pulled hayden out of the daycare he was going to. I have had continuous problems with their communication and lack of care for hayden. To make a long story short, I finally felt so uncomfortable with him being there I pulled him out. A friend I work with has a sister who is the owner of Tierra Vista Montessori School here in town and reccomended it to me. At first i was kind of iffy about putting him in a strict school. However, after i met with the owner I felt so comfortable. The owner was so super sweet and actually started to tear up talking about the parent volunteers and children she watches. The school is in an old two story house. It just felt so homey and child friendly. Hayden LOVES Mrs. Shelly (the owner). Each morning I open the door to the house and he runs inside and gives her a big hug. I can tell he's happy. He's so much calmer at home and doesnt throw as many fits.
*Speaking of Hayden, We've been starting to potty train him. It's so cute when he does his little happy dance after he poo's in the potty. He looks so proud.
*We're still waiting on word from the state about the next step to jerrys legal stuff. It seems to be taking forrrrrrrrrrreeeeeever. But they sure did cash that check fast enough. We were told that he'd be sent to mexico in December for the interviews and be back probably 4-6wks later, however it seems to be taking longer than expected.
*We've done a lot to the house. Its coming around. I just really dont like the floors. Wish i would have done tile or wood instead. Im going to post some pics of the updates.
*The puppy is doing good. We named him Chicle (spanish for gum) because he just sticks to us everytime we go outside to play. Hes a coward. Major coward. No protecting us there. He runs from the crows that steal his food.
*I love laughing so hard that i start crying. Afterwards i just feel so relaxed and calm. Ahhh. :)

so to remind you. There used to be blue carpet on the floors. And there used to be a wall where the arch is. The door to the master used to be where the diamond mirror is, we moved it to the hallway. the living room area also used to be where the dining room table is now in the pics. The opening to the kitchen used to be where the tv is now at.. we flipped it around so it opened into the smaller space (new dining area) and closed it in so that there would be a bigger living area and a little more.. flow? to it.

Welcome, Nameless

Well, we finally did it. We got a puppy for hayden. We've talked about it..visited numerous pounds, and finally found a puppy that we both like. He is nameless as of yet. I will gladly take any names that you come up with under consideration. He's part basset hound and part lab. He kindaaa has the narkings or the basset hound and is short and long. The pictures don't do him justice. He's a cutie

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Its been forever since I last posted. I've been so busy living day to day that I haven't had time to sit and think about what might interest everyone. Then I realized that I shouldn't be putting off writing just because what fustrates me or bugs me wouldn't interest anyone else. I should post because it wil help relieve my stress and anxiety too.

I feel like I've been cooped in my home for too long. I volunteered as a face painter at childrens day yesterday and it felt so good not being on the couch at home. I wish I knew more people who actually had time to go out. I've been wanting to go to sea world again for a while now. I just think it would be fun going with more people..not just jerry hayden and I. the problem is all my friends either work weekends or have a kazillion kids who have their own schedules and cant go. anyone out there interested?

I feel huge lately. It doesn't help when an old neighbor points out that I "used to be so much skinnier". I just don't feel right when haydens in daycare all day then I pick him up to just put him in another day care to work out. Then we finally get home and I have only an hour and a half before hayden goes to sleep. It shouldn't be like that. I should be raising my baby not day care workers.

Hayden has started saying "no" to everything I say. "Give your shoes to daddy" "no." "Hayden I'm not going to tell you again" "no. No. *takes off running*" how do I stop it? Its driving me nuts.

Finally, I've been drained all month. Cooking sounds like torture. I've barely cooked and have tried to get excited about it but I fall short. Its to the point that id rather not eat.

I'm going to HEB hopefully something will stand out and get me pumped to starrt cooking.

Bug

First day of school!

Hayden started daycare today. He cried :( . But before I left him he was so cute. Look at his little backpack!