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Its been forever since I last posted. I've been so busy living day to day that I haven't had time to sit and think about what might interest everyone. Then I realized that I shouldn't be putting off writing just because what fustrates me or bugs me wouldn't interest anyone else. I should post because it wil help relieve my stress and anxiety too.

I feel like I've been cooped in my home for too long. I volunteered as a face painter at childrens day yesterday and it felt so good not being on the couch at home. I wish I knew more people who actually had time to go out. I've been wanting to go to sea world again for a while now. I just think it would be fun going with more people..not just jerry hayden and I. the problem is all my friends either work weekends or have a kazillion kids who have their own schedules and cant go. anyone out there interested?

I feel huge lately. It doesn't help when an old neighbor points out that I "used to be so much skinnier". I just don't feel right when haydens in daycare all day then I pick him up to just put him in another day care to work out. Then we finally get home and I have only an hour and a half before hayden goes to sleep. It shouldn't be like that. I should be raising my baby not day care workers.

Hayden has started saying "no" to everything I say. "Give your shoes to daddy" "no." "Hayden I'm not going to tell you again" "no. No. *takes off running*" how do I stop it? Its driving me nuts.

Finally, I've been drained all month. Cooking sounds like torture. I've barely cooked and have tried to get excited about it but I fall short. Its to the point that id rather not eat.

I'm going to HEB hopefully something will stand out and get me pumped to starrt cooking.

Bug